The last month of November has been a whirlwind that kicked off with my having been the emergency contact for a business associate and when she didn't arrive on the East Coast schedule flight that someone else paid for, I found her after she had been in a psychiatric facility. The behavior I have witnessed since I brought her home the second time they released her, astounded me. Everything fell into place as it was meant to and I finally ended a four and half year association and friendship with a self promoter whose only motivation is reputation and money. After having her drag my business into drama that I had nothing to do with nor worked with, I was ignored and the answer to a question I sent to her personally and privately, was answered on a social media website. Needless to say, a rule was broken so she had to go.
Yet where one door closes, another opens. In this case, several other doors opened as soon as I shut the door on the spotlight ho. My bestfriend from New York returned and in a way, so did her mother - who was my mentor who taught me the Cherokee Medicine ways that I still use today...two decades later.
My best friend and I had gone on our separate journey's when I was with my daughter's sperm donor because of the things that were going on. She did not agree with such things and felt bad all these years for not supporting me and asked me for forgiveness. I laughed and told her there was nothing to forgive. I understood why our journeys needed to go the way it did. I didn't agree with some things in her relationship but it wasn't my place to say anything. 18 years later, that relationship is finally over after he hurt her. She is working on herself and marveled at the timing of our reunion, when she needed me the most. I had always known that our paths would cross again down the line in life just as I've known many other things that have come to pass already and some that are still to come.
While speaking with my sister again (I am still extremely cautious as she truly hasn't learned anything nor has healed the deep wounds within). As I said she would be back living with my mother when she was in her early 40s, it has also come to pass. My brother, who is going through his second divorce, made the decision as we spoke on Thanksgiving for two hours or so, that he's coming out to California since there is nothing keeping him in NY anymore. His first wife fucked him over and moved to North Korea and took my nephew. I could not wish for a better person to experience ebola as she has done nothing but use my brother for citizenship when her student visa ran out. Sadly, I told him exactly how it was because I read her intentions when I first met her and I was dead on with everything, including her running back to her country with my nephew. So, he will come out here during the summer and start anew out here. We talked about going into business together and will discuss things further when he relocates out here.
In the meantime, there are other new ventures happening as yet another from my past has returned after being off on her own journey for the last several years. She has nothing keeping her in her current state of Texas. I was surprised to hear she was out there after having spoken to her when she was in Virginia at the beginning of the year. She's making her way back to the Pacific coast. That one is soul kindred so no matter where we are or what we are doing, when we reconnect it is always pleasurable in a teasing sort of flirtatious way.
As I sit and contemplate all that has transpired this past month and what is to transpire in the coming weeks, I smile and realize I have left my mark on many in this world. With the two reunions and a small step at dealing with the dysfunctional side of my family, I have had an influence. My best friend has often thought of me as much as I have thought of her over the years. When we reconnected, it was as if all those years hadn't gone by at all. Such realities and epiphanies have made me humble with a healthy ego and lets me know I'm on the right path. ;-)
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