As a shaman, I observe the world around me and go about my business without getting involved in OPD (Other People's Drama). Society seems to thrive on it and will not rest without it. It is sad to see the co-dependency of humanity and how they cannot accept their inner darkness and light. We all have a dark side, it just depends on what we do with that dark side. Do humans sin and commit crimes against ourselves, our families and others in the world simply for the '7 deadly sins' of fleshful fantasies, desires and wants or do we accept it and use it constructively?
Many moons ago, when I learned of the Hungarian Gypsy blood that runs through my veins that eventually explained many things on the journey this time around; I had already discovered my dark side. I spent many years fighting against it for the good of all and all that b.s. that my familial Roman Catholic upbringing tried to shove down my throat and brainwash me with but that did not work. My soul followed it's own path as I remained true to myself, both light and dark side. In spite of learning the different folk traditions and medicine ways that were handed down to me, I refrained from using the dark powerful side against myself or others. As devious and wicked as my dark side can get, I do not curse or use negative/black magic in harmful ways. I may use negative energy to battle demons that do exist (no I'm not hallucinating nor insane).
For those that are not aware of what shaman do...we walk in between the worlds...the physical and spiritual world. We travel and have abilities and knowledge of great wisdom. Although many in this world want someone else to fix their lives for them and make all their dreams come true and are always looking for help in some form or fashion - we do not always help when asked. We have great decisions to weigh when others come to us for help. I cannot help those that do not want to help themselves. It is our way...our law...the Universal Law. Doing things for others when they are capable of doing things for themselves is enabling their issues and problems further.
Learning is never over even after an apprenticeship or mentorship or higher education graduation because life is about lessons and we learn something new every day, whether you see it, realize it or not. Being a shaman, I have to be careful with what I do because much of what I put forth in thought and words comes to pass within a certain amount of time (depending on what the situation, who is involved) and in the last two years since the last portal opened in December 2012, the time frame has shortened to within a week's time frame of unfolding...so I have to keep thoughts and words positive.
Others have witnessed things I have proclaimed to come in the near future with others around us; they have indeed come to pass and I find many more coming to me for advice and to 'get my opinion' on things/situations/events/people. While I do my best not to talk negatively about others who have wronged me and others, who have been malicious because I am not a sheeple - I walk my own path and do not conform to the delusions of others nor will I be manipulated nor abused for my peace and freedom. I do tell the truth and only speak from personal experience, I do not gossip or get caught up in the 'he said, she said' grade school game. Life is too short to waste time and oxygen on such immaturity yet there are those that thrive on that chaos and slanderous vengeance and backstabbing.
Living here in LaLa Land has been an amazing journey the last few years; the last year in particular as it was a time with Mercury in Retrograde that opened up my eyes to many other people and their true colors. Human decency, social graces and respect for others and self (in a healthy way that is) seem to be lacking everywhere. Samhain last year I had to fly out to Florida to take care of a long time friend's estate after her 'nephew' and his junkie girlfriend murdered her. I am flying back out in April when her sister flies in from Paris France so that we can lay her to rest out in Key West as were her last wishes so we are going to honor it and then party to celebrate her life. It's not over as I have to fly back out when trial begins in about 2 years in a tight case against the junkies who tried to turn on each other behind bars. Taking another person's life is not okay. It is a crime of felonious murder. Why can perpetrators and the criminals not take responsibility for their own behaviors. If ya can do the crime, you can pay the time. While I still believe in the "Eye for an Eye" way of law...there are other countries who utilize this law and have a low crime and murder rate. Gee, I wonder why that is?
Is it because living LaLa Land that everyone is an actor and actress - whether they act in theater, movies/film or not? Is it because the recent generation failed to learn common sense and etiquette? Respect seems to be few and far between and it is disappointing to see how deeper humanity and society continue to bury themselves in chaos, misery, and emptiness within because they are too afraid to be real with themselves and others.
There is so much suffering around the world with unnecessary wars and hidden executive orders and all that hollaboloo going on in the world, it is sad to see how humanity treats one another. There are many who will take without giving anything in return, there are those who expect everything and think the world is here to serve them and their every whim and then there are those you give an inch and they will bleed ya dry within the mile they take all without conscious or realizing what they do because they don't care. It is sad to see how the generations have declined and embraced the dark side in the wrong way and think nothing of it.
Yet I remain available to those sincere who truly do need the assistance and help. I fought what I finally embraced for the longest time. Why? I did not want the responsibility of what I am here to do yet the Universe and life has taught me that I can do what had been revealed and shown to others and myself. It was terrifying but when I came into my own and embraced that dark side, everything fell into place and I am right where I am supposed to be in life. In all reality, Los Angeles was the second to last place I thought I would ever live, but it feels more like home than New York has since 9/11 and I know I'll be here for a while longer. *smiles*
more to come....
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